Willing..Waiting..Anticipating

May 21, 2017

My mind is all over the world and back! I am a ball of nerves, I know in my heart that everything will be just fine but I cannot help but wonder...overwhelming myself is an understatement and getting rest before Kota Bear comes home does not exist! I know my husband can sense that something is worrying me but can't quite put his finger on it. It's just me being over zealous and over the top trying to make sure that everything is in decency and order..it is such an annoying flaw to be so darn meticulous UGH!! Any who I stayed a night with Kota Bear last night, it was recommended for me to do so before she comes home, that way I can have an idea of her sleep and feeding patterns. Boyyyyy do I feel like I got jumped! me and that couch did not get along at all LOL. Needless to say it was a good night and Dakota is just simply something special I can just stare at her and drift away. One of the nurses caught me in the hallway as I was leaving and her words blew me away and drowned me in tears. As I walked pass her I said my usual "hi, have a great day", she stopped me in the hallway and asked if Dakota was leaving soon? I slowly dropped my head and replied "Yes...its bitter sweet". She said "Shirley your daughter is not one in a billion,she is not one in a million, Shirley SHE IS THE ONLY ONE...THE ONLY ONE"!!! The tears and goosebumps were in unison and immediately took over my emotions. She explained how sometimes she go into Dakota's room and just look at her in disbelief and if assigned she holds her and becomes surrounded in awe. I stood attentive and starred directly into her eyes as she then continued on to say that "all babies are miracles but Shirley she is the one, the reason why parents won't have to be afraid anymore because she survived at just 21 weeks, she is so blessed to be yours and I'm grateful to be apart of her journey (as she teared up) she will do great and she will be great". I gave her a huge hug and thanked her with so much gratitude and appreciation. There are some people in this world who will not give people their flowers to smell while they are alive. I am beyond grateful that she gave me mines at that appointed time. 

 

I took this selfie yesterday with our 7lb 5oz lil boo. Because God hold her so high She is aligned with the sun, stars and the moon :)

I am almost certain that my next post will be about Dakota Smiths homecoming '17' so make sure you all check back in soon! Until then be blessed.

From my heart to yours.  

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